Finding Happiness

After years of being occupied with clichéd life, finally managed to shape my thoughts in the form of a simple poem.

You wonder if there's something wrong in this world,
Then you wonder, maybe it's not the world but maybe it's you,
Or maybe there is nothing wrong at all,
But there is something which does not seem to be true..

Most of our lives are spent working night and day,
Spent on buying things that we do not need,
Most our lives our loved ones are elsewhere and away,
And for the ones that are close there isn't enough time to knead...

What is it then that will mend this broken world,
What is it that will give a meaning to one's life?
Attachment is the cause of all suffering they say,
And without it, everything can be all right..

For me I crave for happiness the most,
Maybe that's why I smile and laugh most of the time,
But otherwise my time is spent on wondering,
What is it that actually makes us happy in life..

Right now I just want to travel places,
I want to adopt all the strays from the street,
I want all the time to read some books,
Sometimes I just crave for a good night's sleep..

And I want to meet you, wherever you are,
Spend some time with you and maybe travel and explore,
For it has been a pretty long journey, and a pretty crazy world,
I don't know how long I can go on my own...

So maybe that's all that is needed for us to be happy,
Sounds so simple, so how did I not think of it before?
Or maybe, 'happiness' is just a state of mind,
Something that is achieved when one reaches beyond the shore...

Farewell Blues...

I can’t believe that our farewell is here already,
Can’t believe that the college will be getting over at last,
I don’t know whether to laugh, cry or to be steady,
can't believe that time can fly away so fast...

But it seems just like yesterday,
That I had entered this campus like a scared little thing,
Afraid that i might be taken and maybe ragged right away,
And be made to dance around, or maybe even made to sing! ...

But in the beginning there were no worries n no tensions at all,
And scoring good marks and all were out of my page,
We were just happy to bunk and hang around in the canteen stall,
and this was long before those formulas were discovered to calculate our attendance percentage...

Now never before I had known how it felt when your friends had to go away,
I had never known how it feels to be in love,
And how bad it feels when you have your first heartbreak,
But I am glad for all these memories I have had till now...


If i say honestly then guys i wont be missing the college at all,
i was always too lazy to get up and travel anyways,
but its d fun that we have had and all my friends that i'l miss,
And in my life these will surely b the most memorable days...


My time around here has always been really special,
But sometimes life never seemed to be at all fair,
but the pranks that we played on each other and all those jokes have always kept me going,
specially those jokes on peter's blue-tooth and jolova's hair...


So this poem is dedicated to all those present here,
All those who have spent past 4 years in this college and specially those who have spent even more,
I am sure, all the time we have spent here will always be dear,
So guys lets enjoy this 1 more day like we have never before...   

Thanks Mom… :):)

This poem I wrote for my mom on her birthday yesterday…and she really liked it…so I thought maybe I should share it too… :)

When the world was too small to live in,                            
When the future was too blurred to see,
And when the truth was so difficult to believe in,
Thanks mom for always being there for me...

Thanks mom for holding my weak little hand,
When the time was hard and it was so difficult to walk,
Thanks a lott for lending me your sweet voice,
When I was a kid and had just started to talk...

Thanks for all the advice thanks for all the care,
Without which I would be lost by now,                          
For listening to my boring stories from here and there,
And making my life so simple somehow...

Thanks for the words of courage that you gave,
When I was down and in a lonely form,                              
For never before i could feel so brave,                      
Never before I could face such a raging storm...

Thanks for everything that you always did,
Thanks for everything that you still do,
For forgiving all my mistakes and for being the lead,
I could have done nothing without you...

May god shower his choicest blessings on you this day,
May all our prayers and all your wishes be heard,
And hope you have a great birthday today,
Fitting the greatest mom in the world...

Stuck on you...

Jus some random thoughts...maybe worthy enough to be given some space...might connect with many people... at least i hope so... :)

Even when all the things have become all right,
And the only worries are so few,
Even when the skies have become so bright,
With no signs of troubles that i once knew...


Still everything does not seem to be fine,
Still it's hard to believe that it is so true,
Maybe since i know it at the back of my mind,
Still, i just hope that i am not stuck on you...


So long it must hav been,
Now I thought maybe i was fine again,
I knew my troubles were only to be seen,
Somewhere down the memory lane...


Then why do i feel the tears drop by,
And why do i think the world is not sane,
Even though there is no reason to cry,
Why am i still feeling this weird pain...?


Maybe it has something to do with your pretty face,
Or maybe because the charm around you has increased even more,
Cuz whenever you look at me I may show no trace,
Of how much helpless the heart becomes to the core...


Sometimes i think there is nothing to fear,
But at times i feel all tired and drained,
And maybe it will take more then one year,
For everything to be all right again...


I wish i could read out my mind,
Oh how i wish, if i only knew,
For i had never known a feeling of this kind,
Still, I jus hope i am not stuck on you...

Because you are not a Monk...

The universe can be strange at times and people may have great fears hidden deep inside them. Fears that are unspoken and unheard of. Though one may never realise what might frighten a person the most...it can be anything...from a living thing to some abandoned place...or anything else...

So it was another stormy night...the rain poured down the windshield of his car enabling him to see only for a brief second when the wipers moved left to right...another lightening flashed across the sky...and he kept praying against hope that the storm wouldn't get any more worse...
But it did...and even from inside his car with the AC and everything on he could hear the wind howling outside...the raindrops were striking the windows as if to say,"what are doing inside you coward...come out and face it...."

He couldn't believe he was stuck in this situation...only this morning he was making plans to attend his best friends wedding. Every important meeting  that day was cancelled, he couldn't afford to miss this wedding. Who cared for the small amount of loss that might incur in his business anyways...after all such a small loss would hardly matter to such a big company that he owned...

But now he was driving an endless road through a thick forest without even knowing if he was going right way...he was completely lost. He wished he had never taken the shortcut, now if anything were to happens to the car here, how helpless he would be, he thought.
And just as these thoughts escaped his mind the engine sound began to grow weaker,it began to splutter and after giving 2-3 jerks the car stopped.
As tension began to rise through his head he began to turn the car key again and again in the clockwise direction...but in vain...it just wouldn't start
'oh my god...!!...what am i gonna do now??'...he cried cursing his fate.
And again just as if to answer him he heard a faint gong of a distant bell echoing through the forest...was it a gong??...no how can that be...in the forest??...well that's impossible...
But no,there he heard it again...
Curious to know more he opened his umbrella and stepped out of the car and looked around in the direction from where the sound came from...He could see some distant lights through the trees...should he follow them?...maybe he could get some help from there...
So he started walking towards them...the storm grew worse and it was difficult even to see what was in front of him...
Finally after 10-15 mins of tiring walk he reached a clearing...he noticed that the lights were coming from some oddly shaped windows...strange he thought...
*crack*...the fork of lightening across the sky made him realize that the windows actually belonged to a huge old fashioned mansion...but that wouldn't scare him off after the troubles he took to reach the place...

He went on and knocked what seemed to be a brass knocker on a huge wooden carved door. An old bald man with an oil lantern opened the door.
'how can i help you son?' he asked with a surprisingly peaceful and soothing voice.
'sir my car is broken down on the road outside and i badly need some help'
'but there is nothing we can do right now, maybe you should rest here tonight and we'l see what we can do tomorrow...'
'ohh i would greatly appreciate that...how can i ever thank you...my name is Sid btw'
'no need to thank me son...this is a god's place and its our karma to help the ones in need...'
Without wanting to know what the old man meant he silently followed a servant who led him to his room. It was an old fashioned room with some candles burning on some stone ledges and a small bed. No fans, no tube-lights. But soon Sid was fast asleep in his cozy bed...
And before he knew what was happening he was sitting bolt upright staring around...not sure of what waked him up he glanced at his watch in the dim candlelight. 3:00AM. The rain and the storm had stopped and an eerie silence had descended the place.

And then he heard it...a spine-chilling scream that would cripple the bravest men...it sounded neither male nor female...neither human nor wild...as if somebody is crying from an endless agony...an unending pain...crying for help...

And just as it started it stopped...Sid was rooted to the spot...his heart was pounding so fast as if he was running for a hundred miles. After gaining some courage in a couple of minutes he went to the door and tried to open it.
Locked.
Now who on earth would do that. Maybe the old man didn't want him to help whatever that was screaming...maybe it was the the old man himself...or maybe he was just hearing things like before?? No, no that can't be true...
With no option left he tried to go back to sleep,but couldn't. The scream kept on playing over and over in his head...

Next morning he heard footsteps approach his room. And the door opened and the old man was standing at the doorway.
'So are you going to tell me what that scream was about??...or shall i find out myself??' Sid bellowed angrily.
'My son,forgive me for not telling you about this place, but honestly you looked really tired last night. This is a monastery son and i and my brothers who live here are all monks. We have shed all our wealth and bonds with our family and have come in peace with God...'
'okay whatever...but i want to know about that scream...'
'this place is older then it looks my son...the scream is what you should choose to forget. The deepest secret hidden in the last room down the hallway can be known only by a monk. And I can't tell you because you are not a Monk. Now, my servant has repaired your car. You must leave...'
Sid understood there was no point in arguing with the old monk, there was a sound of determination his old cracking voice. After leaving the monastery he was even more shocked to see that his car started fine. 'I have to forget this incident,it's just a bad dream...' he thought

But no he couldn't forget it even at his friends wedding. The sound of the  scream in his head seemed to be louder then the wedding shennais playing around. It seemed to play again and again in his mind even at work, while having food, while going to sleep, every time. The more he tried to ignore it, the more the scream seemed to captivate his mind. He became prisoner of his own thoughts...

He knew he had to know about it, there was no escape. So he split up his company shares and all his property among his friends and relatives and decided to go to the monastery again. He had now decided that he would become a monk...

Somehow he reached the monastery again dead in the night. It was pitch dark. He knocked on the the brass knocker and yet again the old monk opened the door. He smiled seeing Sid as if he knew what had happened.
'You answered Lord's calling Son' said he with the same calm and soothing voice.
'Yea you can say that. Now what else i have to do become a monk...?'
Some rituals followed wherein his head was shaved clean and he was made to undertake some vows pledging a complete surrender to God.
'Okay now my son do you really want to know what  lies beyond that corridor??...remember once you see it there is no looking back..."
"Yes i am sure..." Sid said unsure if it was his own voice that had just answered.
 "All right then...Follow me.."

And before he knew it he was following the old man across the familiar corridor beyond the room he had slept once, and stopped in front of a very primitive door of a room. Something about the door gave Sid a feeling that something was not right and whatever that is behind the door should be left alone. But no, he had come too far now. His heart was beating so hard that he was surprised to see how the monk couldn't hear it...
'I can understand what brought you towards this place my son, but whatever you are going to see or experience now, you should be brave enough to take it...' the monk warned him.
And then the old man opened the door...what Sid saw inside scared the daylights out of him...it shook his very faith in God...but it couldn't be possible...how can it be...
It was...


But of course you can't know that...because you are not a monk...!!

Just before the exams....

Exams...a time during which the days don't end at all and the nights are over before could get proper sleep...well this one i wrote before the sems...during the start of study holidays...it illustrates student's two different the states of mind...although the tension is always there...you tend find more reasons to waste your time in any senseless activities then to utilize it properly...just before the 'serious studying' part begins...;)

Just before the exams,
My brain starts going crazy,
There is a huge pile of notes staring from a distance,
But the world can get so lazy...


Just before the exams,
After toiling for 15mins i say 'ohh i have studied so much',
And then the 'breaks' can extend for hours,
And again the books are left to be touched,


Just before the exams,
the weather starts getting so good,
A perfect day to hang out with friends maybe,
Watch some movie and enjoy some food...


Just before the exams,
My idiot bro gets so many games to play,
Then 'CJ Johnson' starts completing his missions,
And i have nothing more left to say...


the television also plays tricks with me again,
And everything on it turns out to be so great,
I even start watching tom n Jerry and Ben-10,
And then it starts getting too late...


Now the days are getting under pressure,
And notes at last are getting sorted out,
At last i try to find the value of 'x',
Breaking my useless head, trying not to shout...


Such are the study 'holidays' of ours,
And though they don't cause much harm,
You can't even relax a bit and enjoy them,
For you know exams are left to come...

Givin' Up.....

Why did it ever start?
When it had to end this way?
Cant imagine what had got over me,
To think things might be true one day...

I cant understand what's wrong with you,
Or why are you acting like this with me,
Everything that i do is for u...
So what is that you can't see?

I have tried everything i could
And used the best advice i could get,
But nothing ever seem to work out
All my plans keep on going bad...

So bad have the times turned up now,
that only your smile for me is enough for the day,
Forget the talking laughing and chatting around,
All those moments are lost and flown away...

My eyes are staring you from a long distance,
That's all i can do right now,
Debating whether if i go and talk with you,
You would move away from that guy somehow...

But no, all paths are shut down,
And the walls are impossible to scale,
My heart is broken, the pieces are shattered,
And all the memories are tarnished and strained...

I am too much tired,too much lonely,
Who knows what might happen in the end,
But now i am worn out and giving up,
Before it is too late for the heart to mend...

The Calling...

The universe can be harsh at times,
And life can move at a lightening pace,
There is no time even to breathe,
And the truth can be hard to face...

But wasn't it just yesterday?
that there were so many people around...
Everything looked so bright and warm,
And no tears were allowed to fall on d ground...

And she seemed to be always there and waiting,
With her eyes shining and smile so bright,
Where oh where r u gone now...?
Was there always something else in sight...?

Nature has her own rules that shouldn't be broken,
And every season has to always change,
Even the time and tide waits at noting,
And so in life u cannot expect such changes to be strange...

But these changes can be so drastic at times,
And noting can be expected to wait,
'Life s a race'...yea that's true,
For u can never defy your own fate...

But always believe in the power of destiny,
And never go down without giving up a fight,
For u can never have control on the beginnings,
But d endings can always be made right...

the leaves may be shed in the autumn,
And then the winters can be long and cold,
The worst will always and soon be over,
and the spring will come, with a new story waiting to be told...:)

My Lonely Self...

I am so calm on the side which s outer,
So steady and so free,
But how i wish somebody mite take a look on the inside,
Cuz on the inside lies the real me...

I lie curled in my own shell,
Really scared of the world like a little kid,
i know not what lies waiting for me there,
And not at all i want 2 be freed...

Cuz certain things in the world can't be faced alone,
And i am tired of doing them all,
My soul so sick of it and about to giv up now,
I wish sumone was there who wud'nt let me fall...

My heart is aching more then ever,
the pain is now imposibl to bear,
I knw nobody wil come to help me out,
I know about me no one evn cares...

More and more lonlier i get by the passing day,
there is no one ever to answer my call,
Evrybody is busy with their own world,
i go to sleep hoping that i wont wake up at al...

the feeling emptyness is growing everyday,
But there is so much to run so much more to go,
This endless path seems impossible for me now,
I have surrendered  my powerless soul...

but time has the power to heal anything,
i hope my nights will pass and I'll see d day lite at last,
but no sunrise will ever b a delight to watch,
Without having a someone whom u can trust...

Well life has to keep moving on,
The future will remain as its supposed 2 be,
But i do hope one day I'll just have a smile on my face,
After reading this sad piece of poetry...

Things before goodbyes...

This is a kind of a special poem...i dunno what made me write it...now when i read it i certainly c'nt imagine from where on earth i could get the idea...it's kind of different...wel it's like what will happen if i m not aable to complete my life...what will be my thoughts...what things will be left undone and incomplete...i mean death c'nt be predicted at all...and i certainly want to live more for sure...but still i liked the idea and thought i should write about it...cuz it's like those times when thoughts start bombarding your brain and u are left with no other option then to pen them down...

hope i'l become an angel only...:D

What has happened...?
why does it feel like night today?
What is going on??
And why is the world looking so gray..??

But it c'nt be over so early,
There are so many things left undone,
My life had jus started,
For i could barely see the sun...

I had so much work to do,
And clear the things that were there,
For i had to face so much,
Nothing in me wanted more to bear...

Then there were people to meet,
And new friends to make,
So much more to gain,
So much more to take...

There were more movies for me to watch,
More picnics were left to make,
And a bundle of feelings,
Waitin for some heart which is not at all fake...

I wanted to roam more places,
There were more buses to catch,
More pics to click,
N so many chicks to match...

There were things 2 be told,
And more secrets to be shared,
More things to talk about,
With the people who i think really cared...

Ofcourse i can see all of them now,
But now it's too late,
I wish all was done before,
Before the curtains fell on the play of fate...

I hear a voice calling me now,
Tears of dispair roll down my eyes,
I wish i had a little more time,
Maybe jus enough to say some goodbyes...

We'l Meet....

This one is dedicated for that special someone whom i haven't met yet...whom i think i'l meet one day... :)

My smile has never been real,
My heart is always skipping a beat,
My eyes are always so moist,
It will remain until i know we'l meet...

The stars are a lot dimmer,
And nothing is shining so bright,
My nights are more and more colder,
And the days stretch on without any light...

The birds are not flying so high now,
And the trees are not so tall,
I can't understand why the world is so confusing,
Even the rain is refusing to fall...

My mind is always so empty,
My thoughts are wasted and gone,
And my heart is always so sick,
With no feelings that are to be born...

Without you in my life,
I will always be afraid of the dark,
My paths will be so cold and lonely,
And the destiny will never make its mark...

My heart is tired of waiting for you,
But i know one day you will come to me,
Till then my seconds are passing on like hours,
And the hours are stretching to eternity...

We might be far away and unknown to each other now,
Our fates have not yet been lit,
But one day i might show you this poem of mine,
The day will come, i know we'l meet...

I Wish...

Quite a simple poem...right from my heart....

When evrything is turning against You,
Your destiny hangs in empty space,
The world is imposible to live in,
The nightmares are so hard to face...

In such moments i wish there was a someone,
On whose shoulder i could have cried all day,
Could have got a hug when i needed one,
And who would have undrstood me before i had anything to say...

 
I wish there was a sumone,
In whos eyes i could get lost everytime they looked at me,
Whose dazzling smile would jus make my day,
And whose consoling voice would be as calm as the sea...

Someone with whom i could sit up all nite,
jus gazing at the twinkling stars from the sky,
With whom i could have enjoyed each sunset,
And the raindrops from every cloud passing by...

Someone without whom life would get unreal,
And each storm would be difficult to face,
Without whom every ocean would be too big 2 cross,
And the sucess would be imposible to chase...

Someone who could so understanding and perfect,
The perfect one for this withered soul,
who could be the silver lining of the cloud,
For this life has a sad unhealed hole...

I wish there was a Someone,
I pray and wait for the wish to come true one day,
And i know u are also waiting jus for me,
I promise i'l find u,whatever the world has to say...

A Ray Of Hope

All of us might face some or the other troubles in our life...well i believe that mos of da troubles v face have mostly two root causes.... studies or relationships...at least that's what i feel...under such times it's best to forget everything and hope for the best...this poem describes my views on all such thoughts...


Life can be full of grim dispair,
Darknes fills in n you have to grope,
But dont give up,not at all now,
Because sooner or later there will be a ray of hope...

I knw u hav been shattered 2 pieces,
The love of your life is away n gone,
You have lost all desires to rise up,
And now no emotions are to be born...

I know you had put a real effort,
You try 2 finish d moduls at any rate,
But results can never come as expected,
N u sit n curse your own fate...

You don't know wht life mite hold for you,
Your life descends in a bottomless gloom,
You end up in a maze with dead ends,
And you can actually see your distant doom...

But u gotta rise from d ashes,
Though there is no hope in sight,
For now yor darkest nightmares are over,
Now you wil hav to get up,get up and fight...

Jus give hope another chance,
For this is your life and your heart,
Open your eyes,breath d fresh air,
Its time to make a brand new start...

C'mon now,open up your wings.
it's time to for you to conquer d skies,
u hav seen too many cowards, u hav felt so much pain,
but now there wil be no more goodbyes...

Dun think abt d future,it c'nt b predictd,
Just live in the present and refuse 2 mope,
Your path mite be steep, mite b hard 2 climb,
But around the bend there wil surely be a ray of hope...

Jus too weird....

Well this is d third poem i wrote...wel it's abt some of the weirdest incidents or people i have come across in my life...or rather why not say..."college life"...yea...so no names are mentioned...but ya'l will ceratainly get atleast some of the the lines n what or who they are about...but if ya'l don't...it's atleast worth a laugh...to think that everything IS true...:)

College is a place where friendships are made,
And there are things 2 be feared,
But there are some things i wanna tell,
Some things that are jus too weird...

It's d best place on earth,
Where most of the gossip is born,
There are so many types of people here,
And so many things goin on...

Life gets really tragic when,
2 souls mite fall for the same lass,
And more difficult it becomes for us,
When 1 fellow talks with her the whole day, and the other lets out d pain that he has...

So next day he tries to impress her,
He gets her all the notes he has got,
But the gal jus replies frankly,
'i hav already cleared al those subjcts...but thanx a lott'...

Then there is a cunning fellow,
His name i wont reveal at al,
He is always with this one gal,
The cutest couple they make aftrall...

"V r jus 'best friends' re...",
Says he, wid his eyes darting,
But u can get the truth behind dese eyes,
When togther they go go-karting...

And then there is the romantic guy,
his 'serious' crushes have always grown,
If u want 2 get the exact no of them,
jus count the semesters he has known...

Bt there are some people who jus want 2 grab attention,
N luv 2 talk really loud,
U bettr run away before they get to you,
C'nt imagine what makes them so proud...

But if u come to our college,
U will surely meet this guy we never chose,
He will always come 2 shake your hand,
Right after diggin his big fat nose...

Such are some of the people here,
Though there is nothing to be feared,
Some things jus need stime to get used 2,
Since they are jus too weird...

A Story Unfinished...

Well this poem about a story i had in my mind all the time...i always wanted to pen it down someday...and so i did it now...but 'time' is a commodity which is available to us in limited amounts...well m not a big 'time-management' expert so maybe that's why this one has not been ended properly...it still lies unfinished...waiting to be completed...

I always wanted to write this story,
It was always there in my mind,
But something prevented me from getting to it,
I never seem to gt enough rhyme...

Some stories are touching and great,
Some are just boring and bad,
Well this one is about a boy,
For whom not a tear was shed...

The boy was really simple,
had lots of fun and was content,
He thought nothing ever will effect his life,
And he would never have anything to resent...

But it all began in college,
Where life took him for a roller coaster ride,
he met the most beautiful girl ever,
he thought she could be the love of his life...

Her face was like d moon without any marks,
Her eyes shone like the morning dew,
Her voice was enchanting as ever,
 And with every second her beauty grew...

He really liked to talk with her,
But it always used to go really bad,
He never knew what he was talking,
With the powers that she had...

He had not fallen in love with her,
Must have been just a crush,
but he had got many years to wait,
And there was nothing to rush...

Sometimes he thought even she liked him,
he wanted to know if it was right,
and sometimes he tried to glance in her eyes,
Hoping that there was some love in sight...

She seemed to become really good friend of his,
More and more his feelings grew,
And when he fell in love with her,
Poor fellow never knew...

But somethings are not supposed to happen,
Somethings end up just that way,
And fate played tricks with him again,
And he ended up stranded so far away...

He always wanted more from her,
More than she were willing to give,
But now they went separate ways,
each with different lives to live...

The boy was left all alone,
And thus ended d duel,
Sometimes he just wondered,
How his destiny could be so cruel...??

So the story ends up right here,
I know a sad tale i have let,
not all stories have a happy ending,
But this one is not over yet....

A Journey...From Nowhere To Somewhere....

Well this one will always be very special to me...it's d first one i ever wrote...it's was like d 'vent' needed by my brain was given to it...n the thoughts came out like the gas escaping from a pressurized cylinder...

It was an endless ocean,
The nite ws dark and d moon ws high,
I ws in my creaky lil' boat,
But i could'nt see anyone whom i knew nearby...

I was doomed 2 cros dis,
until i find sumting in my way,
I hd enough 2 eat,
Bt could'nt remembr how i ended up so much away...

Sumtin had happnd,
Sumtin not new,
I had 2 pay a price,
But d way whch i nevr knew...

I stressed my brain,
den remembrd i was in a big ship,
With so much peopl,
With so much fun n frolic...

I den remembrd,
I used 2 b nice 2 all,
I used 2 enjoy my time,
I was stupid thinkin that it wont end at all...

Amongst so many peopl,
Der was sum1 fr whose attention i alwys crave,
Spendin so much tym wid her,
Tryin 2 hold my nervs n b brav...

Whn i ws confident enuf,
I wantd 2 ask her out,
But i ws so much afraid,
Der was so much doubt...

But it nevr meant 2 b,
D answr ws alwys no,
Without askin her,
I sumhw came 2 know...

But der usd 2 b so much goin on,
Just 2 occupy my mind wid odr things,
Der were so many ships around us,
So many people 2 meet...

I had so many mates,
sailining odr ships around,
V usd 2 meet talk n laugh al d tym,
N new happiness ws found...

But d people frm my own ship,
I cherisd d most,
I thot in dm i hd found frns fr lyf,
Bt whch ws nt true ofcourse...

Der used 2 b a terribl storm,
Whch used 2 cum twice evry year,
V usd 2 b preparing fr it al d tym,
Workin hard 2 prevent wht v fear...

Evn i ws preparin,
Bt dis tym i ws les frightened,
Cuz i cud get al help i needed frm odrs,
I thot our bonds were more tightened...

I had 2 prepare more then d others,
For i had more 2 fear,
I tried 2 do my best,
Bt sensd my end ws near...

but i had confidence to face it now,
n my shipmates were so dear to me,
our bonds should last forevr,
bt alas i never knew dey din think lik me...

and on came d mighty storm,
stronger den ever before,
it's might ws more den evr,
n my hands were so much sore...

it ws too much for me,
d storm ws lasting so long,
i knew i had to leave 'my' ship,
to which i thought i never belonged...

i suddenly came back to reality,
d flashbacks were al gone,
i knew i had to reach sumwhr far far away,
but i had to travel al alone...

I lukd back at my ship,
Fr my boat ws too weak to last,
It needed sum support,
Bt i din knw whom 2 ask...

I waved at my shipmates,
For i thot they had cared,
I thot dey knew wht ws most needed by me,
but With no hope i stared...

I lukd at d odr side of d horizon,
Wher no ships nutin cud be seen,
I knew i hd 2 trevel al alone,
n this is how it mus hav been...

I tuk out my oars,
N rowed away frm al,
I ws sad angry n frightened al at d same time,
Bt i wont giv up not at al...

I woke up wid a start,
Bt i ws oly in my cozy bed,
It ws oly a dream i thot,
Bt din know where it led...

D dream was so far away from d reality,
There were no skies dark no oceans blue,
I knew i was d luckiest of all to have 400+ friends in my list,
Or was it so true....???

well it's only a poem i guess...but whatever it is it will always remain close to my heart....