Givin' Up.....

Why did it ever start?
When it had to end this way?
Cant imagine what had got over me,
To think things might be true one day...

I cant understand what's wrong with you,
Or why are you acting like this with me,
Everything that i do is for u...
So what is that you can't see?

I have tried everything i could
And used the best advice i could get,
But nothing ever seem to work out
All my plans keep on going bad...

So bad have the times turned up now,
that only your smile for me is enough for the day,
Forget the talking laughing and chatting around,
All those moments are lost and flown away...

My eyes are staring you from a long distance,
That's all i can do right now,
Debating whether if i go and talk with you,
You would move away from that guy somehow...

But no, all paths are shut down,
And the walls are impossible to scale,
My heart is broken, the pieces are shattered,
And all the memories are tarnished and strained...

I am too much tired,too much lonely,
Who knows what might happen in the end,
But now i am worn out and giving up,
Before it is too late for the heart to mend...

The Calling...

The universe can be harsh at times,
And life can move at a lightening pace,
There is no time even to breathe,
And the truth can be hard to face...

But wasn't it just yesterday?
that there were so many people around...
Everything looked so bright and warm,
And no tears were allowed to fall on d ground...

And she seemed to be always there and waiting,
With her eyes shining and smile so bright,
Where oh where r u gone now...?
Was there always something else in sight...?

Nature has her own rules that shouldn't be broken,
And every season has to always change,
Even the time and tide waits at noting,
And so in life u cannot expect such changes to be strange...

But these changes can be so drastic at times,
And noting can be expected to wait,
'Life s a race'...yea that's true,
For u can never defy your own fate...

But always believe in the power of destiny,
And never go down without giving up a fight,
For u can never have control on the beginnings,
But d endings can always be made right...

the leaves may be shed in the autumn,
And then the winters can be long and cold,
The worst will always and soon be over,
and the spring will come, with a new story waiting to be told...:)

My Lonely Self...

I am so calm on the side which s outer,
So steady and so free,
But how i wish somebody mite take a look on the inside,
Cuz on the inside lies the real me...

I lie curled in my own shell,
Really scared of the world like a little kid,
i know not what lies waiting for me there,
And not at all i want 2 be freed...

Cuz certain things in the world can't be faced alone,
And i am tired of doing them all,
My soul so sick of it and about to giv up now,
I wish sumone was there who wud'nt let me fall...

My heart is aching more then ever,
the pain is now imposibl to bear,
I knw nobody wil come to help me out,
I know about me no one evn cares...

More and more lonlier i get by the passing day,
there is no one ever to answer my call,
Evrybody is busy with their own world,
i go to sleep hoping that i wont wake up at al...

the feeling emptyness is growing everyday,
But there is so much to run so much more to go,
This endless path seems impossible for me now,
I have surrendered  my powerless soul...

but time has the power to heal anything,
i hope my nights will pass and I'll see d day lite at last,
but no sunrise will ever b a delight to watch,
Without having a someone whom u can trust...

Well life has to keep moving on,
The future will remain as its supposed 2 be,
But i do hope one day I'll just have a smile on my face,
After reading this sad piece of poetry...

Things before goodbyes...

This is a kind of a special poem...i dunno what made me write it...now when i read it i certainly c'nt imagine from where on earth i could get the idea...it's kind of different...wel it's like what will happen if i m not aable to complete my life...what will be my thoughts...what things will be left undone and incomplete...i mean death c'nt be predicted at all...and i certainly want to live more for sure...but still i liked the idea and thought i should write about it...cuz it's like those times when thoughts start bombarding your brain and u are left with no other option then to pen them down...

hope i'l become an angel only...:D

What has happened...?
why does it feel like night today?
What is going on??
And why is the world looking so gray..??

But it c'nt be over so early,
There are so many things left undone,
My life had jus started,
For i could barely see the sun...

I had so much work to do,
And clear the things that were there,
For i had to face so much,
Nothing in me wanted more to bear...

Then there were people to meet,
And new friends to make,
So much more to gain,
So much more to take...

There were more movies for me to watch,
More picnics were left to make,
And a bundle of feelings,
Waitin for some heart which is not at all fake...

I wanted to roam more places,
There were more buses to catch,
More pics to click,
N so many chicks to match...

There were things 2 be told,
And more secrets to be shared,
More things to talk about,
With the people who i think really cared...

Ofcourse i can see all of them now,
But now it's too late,
I wish all was done before,
Before the curtains fell on the play of fate...

I hear a voice calling me now,
Tears of dispair roll down my eyes,
I wish i had a little more time,
Maybe jus enough to say some goodbyes...